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i'm sorry for leaving, because i had to
i couldn't stand to hurt you
i'd kill myself a thousand times
if it made you happy
putting glass to words and letters to my tongue
like a cold shoulder to my anxiety
i watch the stars cascade
hoping you, too, are watching them
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A polaroid above my bed
04:55
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in my room there hangs a polaroid above my bed
a picture of you and me when i was three
covered in flowers dated with my handwriting
i don't think my friends know that i want to die
and i think about you all the time
and i don't think they would care
if i died. i wouldn't care if i died.
so hold me close to your dark flesh
tell me it's alright; tell me it's alright
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when i was in highschool i tried to make friends
i tried to make lovers i tried to believe
but i couldn't see that the marks didn't make people think
that i was worth living
so i stayed in the corners
and huddling close to my only friend
and when she left i stayed close to myself
gaining weight, losing skin
i asked a girl i knew to help me get through this
she said she'd meet me but she never showed
i guess that showshow much the weather
can truly affect your understanding of when you'll get better
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am i dying, because it feels like my mouth is full of water
and i find myself writing songs
to cope with this loneliness
this contentment and resentment
but who do i really hate?
i couldn't place the blame
i am the vines on the side of your house
and you are the heart i had never had in the first place
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stop, you're my family
you mean so much to me
and i ask myself everyday
why the hell would you put this on me
i would trade anything
to be the perfect son you wanted me to be
so i forget to sleep
and i lay awake staring at the ceiling
and i forget to close my eyes
so involuntary tears shed
and i bathe in cold water
in the middle of winter
to punish myself
for never being there for you
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Caught in a storm
04:35
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the snow holes us in
a vacant third story bedroom
and there's no way out if i kill myself
the rain pouring on sheets on the street
on the grass, on the pavement
i wrap my blankets around my body
and try to ignore the sound
of metal on metal on metal on metal
caught up in a storm
holding back every tear i choked down
keeping the blood within
magnolia, you kill me
magnolia.
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Magnolia
04:37
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i brace myself for impact
on the carpet of your bedroom
crying, my eyes burning
and from the sound of life slipping away
slipping through my fingers
like a novel i wrote when I was 17
here at 18, i write again
for the first time
magnolia.
i brace myself for your lisp.
appearing colder on my lips
and telling me it's alright
that everyone i knew who died
is alright, they're alright
and you stop the tears
you stop them from coming down
I used to lose skin, but gain weight
I used to hurt myself
But, now I know what it feels like to be loved
magnolia, you kill me.
magnolia
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Home Poet Records Chicago, Illinois
An independent record label based out of Oregon.
Inquiries: homepoetrecords @ gmail.com
2014-2021
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