Darling, let me be clear about something
I’m not sorry for anything I’m about to say I have nothing to apologize for
I simply wasn’t the one that did wrong
I hate to pin the blame on someone at all But it was completely you
I’m not sorry for anything I said to you Whether it was to make you smile
It was to make you laugh at a stupid joke Or make you kiss me
I’m not sorry for making you feel special
Because I thought you were
You meant the world to me
I’m not sorry for giving you that in return
Even though that’s the last thing you deserve
I’m not sorry for telling you I loved you
That’s honestly how I thought I felt
I feel stupid in retrospect
What we had was anything but love
It was nothing more than a lie
A lie that I was content to believe for so long
I need to keep telling myself
That I did everything I could to make you happy I did nothing wrong
I’m not sorry for spending time with you
Even if all we did was hang out in my bed
It was almost like the world stopped spinning
Just for a little while
I’d forget how I wish I was better off dead
I’m not sorry for caring about you
You certainly never deserved it
But I never got to see your true colors
You look your best in red
Because you stabbed me in the back
And you ran away like nothing happened
All the while blood was still on your hands
I always wonder what you told your friends Did you really tell them what happened?
I was suddenly not good enough for you
So instead of talking to me
You ran away like the coward you are
I don’t know what I did to deserve this I’m still not sorry for anything
I tried so hard to be everything you needed
I don’t know why I wasn’t enough
Maybe I’ll never know
I guess that’s something I need to accept
I’ll just learn to live with it
But when you’re alone in your room
Crying yourself to sleep in your bed
Just know the only thing I’m sorry for
Is how you lost the best thing To ever come into your life
How does it feel to be a murderer?
I watched you choke our relationship dead
I’m not sorry for anything, darling
At least I had the guts to be honest with you
Instead of being constantly distant
And hiding from the sad truth
I’m sorry that you’ve been hurt so much in your life
You push away anyone that actually cares
If you’re wondering why I never pushed back
I just never thought you were worth it
I’m so used to wasting my time
On the ones that never gave me a second of theirs
I’m not going back to being the person I was once
I just wish the person I am
Matched the person I wish I was
Maybe one day that’ll happen
Maybe one day I’ll be enough for someone
Maybe one day you’ll realize your mistake
I’m sorry I won’t be there for that very moment
I’ve got better things to do
I’ve got better memories to make